It's fascinating; as I was doing research for this blog, looking into finding your purpose and how that can bring happiness, life conspired to make it clear that it was time for me to acknowledge my purpose.
For the last several years, I have had a dream, no, a desire to create a sanctuary to help horses and humans heal from the trauma of abuse, psychological, physical, and sexual. I have a page on my website called Finding Peace Farm, and there are a few short paragraphs about it, but I never talked about it.
I couldn't see how I would make this farm a reality. I don't have the money to buy a farm. I figured my dream would remain a page safely tucked away on my website and never see the light of day.
Researching having a purpose in life and its benefits got me thinking, which led to an admission to my business coach. That admission was that the work I truly want to do is to create this sanctuary. My coach didn't laugh at me. Do you want to know what she said? "That's doable." I was utterly floored. Doable?! You have to shitting me! Really?!
Since that coaching call over a week ago, I haven't been able to stop thinking about this desire of mine. I spoke it out loud, and no one laughed. As a matter of fact, everyone I have told has believed it is a great idea. I still don't know exactly how to make it happen, but I have admitted that this is my purpose, and there have been many encouraging signs that I am on the right path.
I have kicked fear to the curb and said, "I am doing this!" Oh, fear still shows up, but she has been relegated to the back seat. She has no say in what happens, and she has no vote on which direction we should go. Her sole job is to warn me when I am in physical danger, and that is it!
I have realized that I have been walking this path, but I have been playing it safe, going with what I know, and staying in my comfort zone. I regularly stray out of my comfort zone, but on this. I just couldn't do it. At least until I realized, I could do it, and I will do it.
I have also found that I have to reassess things I'm doing and ask myself, what will I keep doing and what will change? This assessment is something that needs time and consideration; hence, I did not write a blog post last week. The following is what I have at this point.
I will continue to write a blog, and it will still be geared around self-development, but it will be based on Equine Facilitated Learning. It will be about healing trauma and how to build resiliency, which is an essential part of healing trauma. I think that I am also going to change the blog's name from Nourishing Souls to Musings From the Barn. I also believe that the blog may come out twice a month instead of every week.
I am having difficulty envisioning everything I want to do, but I know that as things move along and grow, I will become more precise about what I want things to look like. I am comfortable with doing it messy, to begin with. All too often, one can be immobilized by wanting things to be perfect. I want movement, not immobilization, so I will start messy and clean it up as I go a long. I hope you will come along with me for the ride.
This blog post isn't going to be long because my goal is to update you on the changes that are taking place. I'm shifting and reworking my project. I have done that a lot in the last year, and years ago, I would have become discouraged with all the changes. Now I realize that it is all a process, honing my idea and bringing it closer to what it is meant to be.
My parting words to you are: step into that dream you are afraid of admitting. It is your purpose. In stepping into it, you will find great joy. Don't let fear, uncertainty, and anyone's negativity stop you from walking toward your dream. Envision the end product, and even if you can't see the next step, move forward and look for signs; they will appear. You are here for a reason. Please go out and shine your light because we need more bright lights shining in this world.